It hurts

feeling backstabbed. Betrayed. Talked bad about. Alone. Defenseless. Looked bad upon. Depressed … It hurts soo bad to feel this way … I feel like i can only trust about 3 people… Everyone else is sooo quick to act like they care just to get shit out of you and then they turn and use it against you and talk shit …y actions dont hurt anyone so why must people always feel the need to talk so bad about me? I dont get it. I put up a front and this great fake smile like a dont care and its not phasing me but in reality inside im getting torn up and apart bit by bit im really hurting and noone knows it… One day i hope itll be all over and ill be numb. Cant wait till its done.